Merry Xmas

Merry Xmas. I know I know, It's a little bit late. haha too busy with shopping. Wish you all have a good new year!

看着这雨后放晴的夜空， 零零散散的星星诉说着心情。 就这样我和无数的日日夜夜一样度过了这个不能再平凡的圣诞夜了。雨中度过的圣诞， 不孤单却孤单的第二个圣诞。 呵呵， 复杂吧。 我慢慢解释吧。 不孤单呢是因为有朋友家人陪伴。 可越是过节， 越是觉得心里面孤单。总想问， 为什末要有节日呢？ 节日就是会让孤单的人更孤单， 幸福的人更幸福的日子， 何必呢？为什末还要在伤口上撒盐呢， 为什末还要对本来就不太幸福的人加上一层霜呢？难道就是提醒现在不太幸福的人们不要忘记曾经幸福的日子？千万不要理解我就是那个不幸福的人， 我只是为穷苦人民打抱不平。 我的日子还算是幸福的， 很多事情可遇不可求， 知足就好。

虽然是下着雨的圣诞夜， 周围的人们无不面带笑容， 满怀喜悦的度过这个圣诞。 看来这享受小幸福的人还真多， 没事偷着乐吧。 呵呵。 我呢又是以购物的方式来迎接圣诞的。 我发现购物真的可以让人忘记不少东西， 呵呵， 去年也是这样购物过来的圣诞。 总之有喜悦， 也有无奈。毕竟人生不是完美的，曾经的遗憾才让我们更珍惜未来。

It's time to say hi and goodbye

“其实人生不过就是这样吧，不管你当初是如何抱着满怀的热忱和希望，到最后总会随着消逝的日子变得阴消云散。一生只爱一个人，有多少人唱过说过，可是又有多少人做到过？美好的东西总是短暂的，这大概就是一种悲哀吧。”这是李白玲在最后的一句台词。随着血色浪漫2的结束的歌声， 我的远行也画上了句号。漫长的血色浪漫2， 中间确实是有很多都是滥贫， 但结果我还是喜欢的，是让人感动的。如果李白凌不病， 而且过着幸福的日子，方言还会找她吗？故事毕竟还是故事， 生活中还是遗憾的事情多。 我也不禁去想， 我们还有多少青春去浪费， 还有多少岁月去寻找答案？

确实美好的东西总是短暂的， 一转眼我就回来了。分离固然是感伤的， 但是也不能因为感伤而不再去相聚。行了，我也不在这里触景生情了。 刚下飞机就来这里写点东西， 怕过一会就忘了。 这次回去是仓促的， 北京都没好好呆。 先是去上海苏州，然后又去了桂林。可能是旅游的太多了， 对周围如诗如画的景色也没什莫感觉。哈哈， 看来什莫事情都不能做过了， 过了就是失去其价值了。 估计下次回去一定要去西藏，一定要好好安排一下。 其实这次回去还挺特殊的， 好久都没有感受北京的初冬了， 每次回去都只能是夏天， 这次冬天回去还真让我对以前的日子有些怀念。冰糖葫芦，庙会， 我觉得北京的冬天比夏天有味道。 或许是我很久没有感受北京的冬天了， 才有此结论的， 或许是它的凄凉让我感到有些共鸣。

下面是这次回国的一些照片，苏州，桂林，还有北京的。

Suzhou

Guilin

Beijing

Shanghai

祖国人民对我的欢迎方式还真的是有点特殊。 来到上海第一个晚上就丢了手机。这种热情的待客方式毅然的让我感到我已经不太适合中国的国情了。呵呵。来到上海这个繁华的城市其实没有我想象的和人们所说的那样那麽的繁荣，那末的现代化。别说是与纽约，就是与东京相比都是有很大的距离的。 有时候还是不要自欺欺人的
好。不过在黄浦江边坐下喝个咖啡， 细细的品尝写甜品，还是别有风情的。

刚从苏州回来，山美水美人也美。 上有天堂，下有苏杭。我觉得苏州是一个美好的地方。值得一去的地方。江南水乡的优美景色，加上厚重的文华背景。 可以说是人间少有，让我流连忘返。初冬的园林却是有点让人感到凄凉，有一种犹豫的美。。。正好符合了我此时的心情。。。。有时间我会把照片补上的。

享受了美好的事物之后难免是分离的忧伤。虽然经历了无数的团聚和分离，心里还是会有一点点的凄凉。毕竟人是有血有肉的，美好的事物也都是短暂的。下一站面对的是北京，快乐或许来的比忧伤快一些， 这样日子就会好过一些。

时间快得让年轻的我们来不及回忆，
想不起来并不代表一切已经忘记。
所以我能用充实的生活不去怀念，
但时间永远不能让我们忘记

It's time to come home

回忆起刚来日本的时候， 正是樱花盛开的时节， 转眼间是要离开的时候了。时间也像我希望的那样，转瞬即逝，2006年也要过去了，不知道今年是否会像去年一样有个温暖却可怕的冬天。 记得刚来的时候， 新鲜的一切让我无暇顾及内心的感受。渐渐的习惯了一切， 也发现自己成长了不少， 自己在这个世外桃源想明白了也看清楚了很多事情。

来日本当然要旅游，我的脚印遍布了很多地方。大阪， 东京， 神户， 广岛，四国，京都，奈良，鸟取。。。无数张照片都记不清楚在哪里照的了。 拜访了无数个神庙， 也吃腻了日本饭。大阪的Leehom演唱会， 神户的牛肉， 大山的softcream，杨鹏家的火锅，Shidex的Karaoke, endless drinking parties, 东京的商店和FujiQ Highland，还没有离开日本就已经有点怀念了。 今天有个朋友说了个经典的话， 分分和和就是感情， 没有分哪有和。 在这即将离开的时候， 我才发现不知不觉中对日本这个地方有了感情。 吃也吃了，喝也喝了， 玩够了吧， 是该回家的时候了吧。 接下来的行程有上海，北京，温哥华， 最后回到那个有着厚厚回忆的华铁卢。

这一路走走停停，
了解了很多地方，
却还是不知道家的方向。
但无论走到哪里，
耳边回荡的歌声，
脑海的景象却一生收藏。。。

It's time to come home

睡不着

听着歌， 睡不着， 这首歌在耳边不停的回放。。。。

A weekly report

Yesterday, I had some feelings of writing a blog. Unfortunately, my home internet was down and I was too tired to bother fixing it up. Today, all the feelings are gone and cant remember what I wanted to say really. Well, perhaps it is good enough only to write some leftovers from yesterday.

Tokyo Tower(Click for more pics)

I finally had chance go to see the "Famous" Tokyo Tower on Sat. It was sunny in morning, but became really cloudy by the time I got there. To be honest, nothing really is special about the tower. I wasnt disappointed neither since I expected nothing. It is only an ordinary iron tower for boardcasting, excepted it is painted white and orange. Dont know why Japanese people like orange colour so much. There is a temple, called "增上寺", close by the tower. It attracted me more than the tower. Coincidentally, the temple was holding a funeral for a Japanese lady. Perhaps she was famous, because I dont think someone random person could just rent such a big and famous temple for funeral. People all wear traditional Japanese clothes in black.

Sunday visited an old old friend of mine. She now plays on China softball team. They came for a 4 nations softball competition in Tokyo. I wasnt lucky enough to watch the game and cheer for my friend and China team during the week. So I invite her come out for dinner. Although softball is not a popular sports as other big sports, there were still some funs around the hotel and asking for autographs. I can still clearly remember her as a young girl in the elementary school, we use to play around and flight haha. I never thought she would become a softball star and represent China at that time....even now, it still seems unreal to me. Well, I am proud of her, at the same time, she or the entire China softball team deserves much more respects from the public. Becasue, they train hard and those girls have really sacrifced no less than other sports. Sorry people, I have to mention the most disappointed and shitest ever China soccer team. WHY lots of chinese still watch them and give them support? I have to say they are “中国败类”! My friend showed me her recently injured finger and a big scar from the knee surgery last year. My feelings could not expressed with words. So friends, next time around if you see China softball team either on TV or on the street, please give those girls a big hand.

BTW, Got a new haircut

From Tokyo Tower

Autumn in Japan

Nikko Click for more pics

Finally uploaded some pictures from last weekend. My co-workers took me to Nikko, one of the best place to see the Japanese maple trees. It was very pretty except the weather was a little disappointed.

多事之秋， 几家欢喜几家愁，或许秋天是一个让人寂寞的季节，也是一个喜新厌旧的季节。日光(Nikko)的枫叶确实让人迷恋， 红叶红的刺眼， 给这深秋带来了一丝暖意。 说到红， 想到了最近正在看的血色浪漫， 朋友极力推荐，呵呵， 还不错， 对白真牛， 还是咱北京话听起来爽快！说着说着，又说跑题了。

据说电影《烈爱伤痕》是在日光拍摄的。 可能大家对这个电影名字并不熟悉， 但我说几个这部电影的插曲却一定无人不晓。 《我真的受伤了》，还有《结束不是我想要的结果》都是张学友脍炙人口的佳作！灯光也暗了。。。音乐低声了。。。。我的心开始想你了。。。结束不是我要的结果。。。。。却成了彼此为唯一的出口。。。。好想唱歌呀！

多麽潇洒的祝福
我以为说的清楚
当你的不舍埋在我手里哭
对和错却在眼前反覆的冲突
多麽温暖的结束
我以为你会快乐
当我的拥抱抱不住你的苦
谁会相信我要比你更加无助

结束不是我要的结果
却成了彼此唯一的出口
当城市烟火叫人坠落
那个紧紧把你抱住的人应该是我
结束不是我要的结果
感情却在拉扯中失控
当街边的车催你放手
那个等在车窗里面的人 已不是我

Sunny Day

WOW! It is a sunny day today.... the Sun always makes me happier :).

Working 12 hours a day does not really give me much chance to see the sunshine during the day. Feel like Ｉ have been living in the dark for a long time. Therefore, I just took a little walk under the sunshine! haha...feel so fresh again!

Ok, go back to work now!

Don't Love-David Tao

I love listening to my favorite songs on the train. 3 hours on the train everyday seems not long enough for me to enjoy all my music. Sometimes, music can really help you think.Here I share a little picece of my life on the train with you.

再次分享我喜欢的一首歌吧。《不爱》。 无论是词还是曲， 还有唱法， 我觉得是一首不错的歌。轻柔抒情的钢琴伴奏， 加上陶喆高亢且毫无保留的唱法， 唱出了这首歌独一无二的风格与韵味，有一种声嘶力竭的味道。 其中很欣赏这句，“你恨我，别心软, 我也不为难。不容许陷害前伴，误解了别离的悲，不可能送来这遗憾的爱，我们都真实对待”。有人跟我说这首歌有点悲， 呵呵， 我觉得这种毫无保留是一种释放，听起来爽呀！

快阻止时间倒转
当我们再次遇见
这样的表情最适合隐瞒
我依然爱你很深
别再多看我一眼
别试探我真的感觉
我怕认不出又会重眷恋
你连背影都温柔
不爱就转身离开
一个人把回忆推翻
不爱 否定了未来
你恨我别心软我也不为难
不容许陷害前伴
误解了别离的悲
不可能送来这遗憾的爱
我们都真实对待
不爱就这么离开
一个人被寂寞煎伴
不爱只守着被爱
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 不能说出来
不爱就转身离开
一个人我学会忍耐
不爱去那找被爱
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 我微笑离开
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 就这样不爱

MVP

Went to play my company's basketball tournament this weekend. Our department WON!! I was named the MVP.

居然还有奖品拿。。。。美呀！

小总结一下

呵呵， 趁着今天喝的有点高， 小总结一下我日本的生活。 真是去了不少地方， 日本及本上快玩遍了。 真是觉得日本的时候确实有点"堕落"。 我这个长假给自己放的有点长了， 好像都忘记了一切了。 呵呵呵， 现在已经对旅游没什麽感触了， 除了照相，真没什莫太大的兴趣了。 日本这庙还真多， 现在想起来都有点想吐了。 日本料理也吃得差不多了， 什莫神户牛，寿司， ogonomiyaki, takoyaki, 已经吃到想吐了。 有点生在福中不知福了。我知道虽然现在有点too much of Japan, 但是将来还会怀念这段日子的。

其实收获最多的还是交到了一大堆的朋友日本人中国人，反正各国的都有。是这帮朋友让我感到了温暖。每个星期必去的唱歌，必去的腐败聚会， 一起去吃烤肉，一起去海边放烟火。 如果我真的离开了， 我会怀念的这里的一切的。是你们这帮朋友们让我觉得开心。 Thank you all from my heart! 来东京两个月吧， 一不小心居然出名了， 还有了自己的歌友会。 呵呵， 还有经济人。。。。呵呵你们太能忽悠了。 这一下子出名， 还真有点接受不了。 总之来说， 很感谢，也很高兴认识你们这样真诚的朋友们。 真的真的感谢，让我觉得初来一个陌生的地方， 还能有这麽热情的朋友们，真的真的很高兴！

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胡思乱想

四季变迁，物转星移，自然界告诉我们轮回这个道理。或许生命的形状就是一个无形的圆。我胡思乱想着。。。。

忙碌了两天终于吧我的汇报弄完了，这下可以喘口气了， 晚上和同事又去喝酒庆祝了，独自回家的路上我胡思乱想着。。。。

没下下来的雨， 让周围的空气潮湿沉闷， 阵阵微风吹过， 让这马上就要入冬的东京有一丝丝仲夏夜的味道，周围依旧能听到蟋蟀的吵闹。舍不得这温暖又感动的空气， 我深深地吸气，幻想着明年的夏季。。。。。

Between Living and Death

Fujikyu (Click for more pics)

I could not imagine I would go on two world record rollercoasters in the same day. But yup, I did in Tokyo, Fujikyo Highland. As a big fun of rollercoaster, I think it is an amazing place. It is certainly the one of the best places I have been to in Japan and highly recommanded to you if you ever come to Tokyo.

From Fujikyu

First rollercoaster is called Fujiyama, the highest rollercoaster in the world, 79m above the ground. As the conveyor belt gradually delievered me to the top (79m), I could feel the air became thinner and thinner. I heard less and less outside noises, and my heart beats became clear.....I counted to 3 and held a deep breath as I reach the peak...then ....I freed my hands.....Next thing I know was rolling down the track at 130 km/h almost like a free fall, I could felt the gravitational accelertion forced all my blood into my head. It challenged every single cell in my body to the limit. Perhaps this is the closest point to death......30 seconds ride felt a lot longer than 30 seconds (Perhaps it confirms Einstein's theory of relativity, joking haha).....

From Fujikyu

Ok, the next one. It just opened this summer. It is what they called 4th dimension rollercoaster. on top of the 3-dimensional rollercoaster, rotating seat adds the 4th dimension. It holds the world record of max number of inversions ( a total of 14 inversions ). The coolest part is that when rolling down the deepest slope (almost vertical to the ground, you can see a picture of it from my photo album), my seat turned my face downward and facing the ground, almost like watching myself falling and crashing into the ground (I could hardly keep my eyes open). My legs were hanging outside the seat as well. Although it is shorter, it is certainly more scary than the first one.

After these two rides, I felt like being reborned. My soul was refreshed under the G-force.

Self-contradicted

There is this thing that I hate soooo much, but I have to do it every single day! At the same time, this thing is my only hope everyday. I yearn to do it......I do not think you can ever guess it right. hahahaha....

P.S: Good news, Company Basketball Tournament next weekend! Missing B-Ball so much!!!

You're not here (你不在)

This is a song by Leehom (one of my favourite pop singers ). It has been three years now since I heard it for the first time. Yup, yup, 3 years already...never realize time has gone so fast...I think (If I am not wrong) Leehom already had 2 newer albums after Unbelievable, which this song was collected in. Considering the pace of Chinese Pop music industry, 3-year-old song is an old old song, which might be forgotten by most people already. However, after 3 years, somehow, it still sounds fresh to me everytime I hear it. Lots of memories of this song flow through my mind like they only happened yesterday.....to be honest, the song does not have fancy lyrics like Fang WenShan(方文山)'s, and also I wouldn't say the melody is among the bests. From a technical point of view, I would probably categorize it as an averagely good song which may be liked by many people and then forgotten after a period of time. For some reason, the combination of its lyric, music and Leehom's voical really really touches me everytime I listen to it. Emotionally, I think this is one of a few songs that wont be forgotten for a life time. Perhaps I love things being simple but remarkable.....just like this song.... 或许就是这平淡而又实在吸引了我

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门　　
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯　　
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
如果渴望一个吻的余温　　
我关了灯黑暗把我拼吞　
你不在 当我最需要爱
你却不在 无尽等待像独白的难挨
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在　　
我受了伤在偷偷好起来 但你不在 不在　　

时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针　　
一个人吃饭这个凌晨 孤单一人份
你低声说你有别人　　
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真　　
你说的对 我不得不承认
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难挨
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在

那些摇摆 我都明白 都明白
但你不在 爱已不在 不在　　
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在
一个人分饰两角的恋爱
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在
像空气般不存在 再没有痕迹的爱　　
你不在 当我需要你的爱 你不在

一首简单的歌

云和天 蝶和花 从来不需要说话 断不了依然日夜牵挂

很喜欢这句个词， 今天记下来......希望你们也能分享此时此刻我听这首歌时的美丽。

Life is an art

Quote of the day "Life is an art!" ---(Thx Sof).

I was so attracted to this phrase. Life = Art?

I found an interesting definition of art on Wiki. Art is "the use of skill and imagination in the creation of aesthetic objects, environments, or experiences that can be shared with others" (Quoted from Wiki).......

What is life?Wiki explains "The physical, mental, and spiritual experiences that constitute existence"....

so here is my conclusion...... use your imagination....life is an art if you think it is

Uploaded some pictures from this long weekend! Enjoy!

Disneyland

Oct 1, 2006 - 6 Photos

靖国神社

Oct 8, 2006 - 5 Photos

Imperial Palace

Oct 8, 2006 - 2 Photos

雷门 浅草寺 上野动物园

Oct 7, 2006 - 4 Photos

Facing the darkness

关上灯，只有这个荧光屏微弱的光线笼统的勾画出我的面孔，周围的一切被黑色吞食，我却舍不得睡去，舍不得就这样让美丽的一天又从身边悄悄地溜走却无人分享.......

Disneyland (continue)

When the rides are not thrilling anymore and all these carton characters are too stupid to watch, I think I am too old for Disney! Looking at thousands of smiling faces, I ask myself why I do not appreciate the world around me as much as before. Is it because I am too used to it? or I am more mature?but what does mature actually mean?......no matter what the reason is, feelingless is really scared me.....

Disneyland Tokyo

Went to Disneyland today, blue sky with cool breeze, makes me feel like it is the spring again.....昨天的风雨交加已经完全消失在这一阳光明媚的清晨。Disneyland Tokyo is very similar to the one in Cali, it reminds me the time that I went to L.A. Disneyland with my school band.......Since this is a long weekend in Japan, so many people and kids....as you can imagine, I basically spend all day looking at people's heads (Most Japanese are very short.....) and lining up for the rides. Only went on two rides and watched a Micky Mouse Show in Japanese, in which I felt asleep :p....so my second Disneyland experience was 不去遗憾，去了后悔.

so tired from walking today, I will continue this tomorrow....

Late.....

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忙碌了一天，有回到自己一个人的小屋。 突然想起一句话，前面忘记了， 意思就是说无论你的人生怎末样，最后大家是一样的，一个小小的盒子才是自己永远的家。不要误会， 不时说死亡。 我的意思就是说，无论你的生活有多末的辉煌， 回到家里，你还是你，我还是我， 回到属于自己，被四面环抱的不大不小的空间。。。。一头躺在床上，看着天花板，白天的情景像一部电影在播放。。。。

上面是今天早上在公司楼下排的， 不要问我街上的人为什麽这麽少。 被你猜到了， 我迟到了。昨天弄着个Blog,不知不觉弄到3点。今天早上不知道是闹钟没有响还是我没听见，一睁眼九点半了。。。。跑到到公司11点。。。唉。。。。。实在不好意思呀。 老板都拿我没办法了。。。。

本来打算晚上早点下班去嚎两嗓子， 结果晚去了，也就只能晚走了。晚上参加了中秋节的聚会， 很多人， 认识了很多新朋友。 第一次在外国过中秋节， 而且还有月饼，真的是好久都没吃到了。祝大家中秋快乐。明天可能去DisneyLand Tokyo如果不下雨。

Walking in the Rain

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Recently, a friend of mine re-inspired me to write blog again. I think it would be nice to share some of my thoughts with you....希望这个blog可以记录一点点我的生活，让这些不经意的生活小片段留在这里而不被时间冲刷，同时希望可以产生一点点共鸣。

havent really talked about my life for a long time, many many thoughts are flowing through my mind right now. so much to talk about, at the same time...dont know what to say.

Walking in the rain, listening to my favourite music, what a lonely man could ask for more in life? Surrounded by countless buildings, sky seemed narrow and small, thousands of strange faces on the street, all seemed busy.....This is Tokyo, a city that is nightless....restless.....my story begins here...

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(To be continued...)